New Year's Eve...Momma Style

      Blame it on Christmas.  Blame it on our busy holiday schedule.  Blame it on exhaustion.  Shame. On. Me.  It has been 2 weeks since my last blog post and I give you my deepest apologies!  Most of you all have been keeping up with us on FB and know we have such exciting things going on around here.  I meant to blog last night, but I fell asleep. And I threatened my husband when he tried to awake me from my pregnant slumber. The past couple of weeks I have been haunted by a couple of poltergeists named nausea and vomitting.   They will not leave me alone.  When I lay my head on the pillow and when my feet hit the floor in the mornings, there they are.  Though I am very sick this time around, I am counting that as a blessing.  Because, you see, there are TWO sweet babies growing and making momma's hormone levels hit the roof.  We are so excited to be experiencing the gift of twins yet, again.  I feel like I am walking on cloud 9.  The fact that this summer, I will be a momma of FIVE kiddos five and under is so exciting!  I know, I may or may not have lost my mind.  But we are looking forward to the challenge.  Paislee has told me several times that she was really hoping for 3 babies, but 2 would be just fine.  :)
      Since Christmas we have been so busy!  The day after, we went for our ultrasound.  After calling 3 different times, I finally talked to a nurse that agreed to book my ultrasound earlier than planned!  Yay!  Please don't be mad at me, sweet nurse, Kellie! ;)  I am so glad that she did.  I knew in my heart there were 2 in there.  But I was so nervous about seeing both heartbeats.  My sweet IVF buddy calmed my fears through email that morning.  My fear was that we wouldn't see them yet, since it was so early, and then I might have a panic attack.  But, we did.  And though this isn't my first rodeo, it was just as exciting to see both of those little flickers on the screen.  My heart was so happy and at peace.  Our doctor entered the room shortly after to discuss our visit with us.  She asked if we were upset it was twins again.  She said that sometimes patients are upset at that news.  Are you kidding me?  Anyone goes down the road of fertility should NOT be mad or upset when they find out they are carrying more than one.  You should feel blessed, that is all.  Beggars can't be choosers.  I would much rather have 10 babies than no babies at all.  My loving and impatient mother waited for us downstairs and entertained the kiddos.  They anxiously awaited the news when we stepped off of the elevator.

Their little faces were priceless when we told them the news!  We go back for another ultrasound next week.  And THEN...I will get to go see Dr. Gass.  Have I mentioned that we love him? Best OB ever!  We always look forward to seeing him and his sweet nurses each visit.  They are the best!  With twins, also comes many ultrasounds.  I am looking forward to seeing my little beans often!  Cannot wait to find out the genders! Already working on those creative baby names! ;)

      The days that followed the ultrasound consisted of my poor little man, Hudson getting sick.  A trip to a Cheer Competition at Opryland, and a short mini vacay to the mountains with my sweet in laws.  We took our triple stroller along with us and everyone that passed told us how full our hands must be.  I loved to see the looks on their faces when we responded by telling them we were expecting twins.  Some looked shocked, others congratulated us, and the rest, well they thought we were joking.  You know how Justin Timberlake brought sexy back?  We wanna make big families "cool" again.  If we have to drive an ugly church van, we will rock it. :) Anyways,  I was sick a lot...I ate a lot...and my phone was dead most of the time.  And I loved that.  No trivia crack for me.  This gal loves it when her phone goes dead.  No distractions.  By the way, if you play trivia crack, DELETE it.  Yes, mother in law I am talking to you.  Yes, mom, you too.  It will suck your life away and you will be glued to an electronic device 24/7.  Just don't do it, friends, lol.  Don't go to the dark side.  Did I mention that I let my phone die pretty often?  I say this all while my uptight hubby is frantically searching for my charger and fussing at me for not charging it, lol.  He seems to think that is irresponsible.  He's no fun at all.  Gotta love him.  My Paislee won her competition and did such an awesome job.  She is coached by the best, Ms. Drew Bewley, we love her.  My Nashie felt better and got to swim and have fun, and Dax was super baby and just went with the flow.  We had a great time,  but we are all so glad to be back at home tonight.  We had to get a little wild and crazy on New Year's like we always do.  I say this, while I am sipping lemonade out of my batman cup.  We had hot dogs and cheese dip in the middle of the living room floor while watching New Year's Rockin Eve and having our own little dance party.  My kids have moves!  They get it from their momma, lol!  But you know we may need to work on them when we have to yell "NO pelvic thrusting!"  Haha!  I cuddled my Dax and fed him too much cheese dip,  brushed tangles out of Paislee's damp hair, and fixed my Hudson a hot dog just how he likes it.  And I did this all with the man I love.   The man I love to tease and the man who I annoy to get me snacks every hour.  The man who has changed more poopy diapers this week and cleaned up my puke when I can't aim perfectly at the toilet bowl.  I don't give him enough credit sometimes.  Oh how our New Year's Eves have changed since having kids.  It's a far cry from the bar hopping and clubbing we used to do several years ago.  Those were the days.  Don't freak out, Nana...it is a joke.  Ok...so I lied.  Never, have I ever done those things on New Years, lol.  Had to add a little excitement.  I have always been an old soul and a little boring, I guess.  Every other New Years's that I can remember have been spent on the couch with Cody watching the ball drop.  The kids made it til 10 pm.  Woohoo!
      Mommas, if you happen to be out bar hopping or spending New Year's Eve with someone other than your family and kids, then shame on you.  Yeah, I said it.  2014 will never be here again.  Why not ring in the new year with your little people.  They should be the most important part of your life anyways, and it's their holiday too, remember that.  The glory days are over.  Throw on an oversize t shirt and stay in the comfort of your own home.
      I look over my life this past year and I feel so much love it hurts.  Things have almost been so good, that you worry that it's your turn for something bad to happen to you.  The scariest part about having so many children is that each time, my heart gets split into even more pieces.  My heart will soon be in fifths.  And I know one day, many years from now, they will all be out on their own celebrating New Years Eve.  I can only hope and pray that the values and morals we are instilling in them, they will carry throughout their lives.  I know I will worry and I will pray for them.  And maybe, I can be that fun mom.  And they will all wanna be piled up at home eating junk food with me.  A momma can wish, right? ;)  My New Year's Resolution is to get more organized and be present.  I feel like that is the best gift you can give.  Be present, make eye contact when having conversations...even if it is about a unicorn or ninja turtles.  They know when you are listening and when you aren't.  And if we don't listen to the "little things,"  they may not tell us the "big things" later on.  And let's be honest, I have got to get more organized since I am going to soon be a momma a 5.  My sweet friend is coming this week to help me start with my house.  I PROMISE I will keep my blog going weekly, whether I have to peel my eyes open or not.  Please continue to pray for our new sweet babies that they will continue to be healthy.   Thanks, as always, for reading and SHARING my jumbled mess of thoughts.  I wish each of you a very HAPPY and BLESSED New Year!  Love you all, mean it!